Thank you for the personal response about God, “I’m starting to believe God is evil. What do I do?”
I am sorry and sadden to read that you are beginning to believe God is evil. Since one hasn’t share the reasoning for that thoughts. Is it because of some personal circumstances, because of other Christians, or because of what one reads in the Bible.
As a Christian, I have read at times respondents saying that God is a murderer, that he is unjust or impotent in ending illnesses and death. Some individuals cite that God is murderer for the millions due to the Flood, the killing of innocent firstborn Egyptian babies, or the Canaanites in the Promised Land. As I have written in other responses, let me briefly share my view on that point.
A. God is compassionate and does not desire the death of anyone.
When one reads the account of Genesis 6, evil was rampant on the world. The innocent were abused or killed by those who were stronger or more powerful. There was no justice on earth. There was no court to render justice. God saw the hearts of everyone was evil and evil all the time. God gave humans nearly 100 years to change their way while the Ark was being built. There was no change of their evil behavior. The question is, “Where is God? Why don’t God do something about it?” God brought forth justice for the innocent victims in the world. He spared Noah and his family and would have spared others if they too were repentant of their evil thoughts and actions. Was God wrong in judging the evil of mankind?
When one reads the account of Exodus 11-12, one reads that Pharaoh ordered the killing of every baby boy born to a enslaved Jewish woman. Since that failed, Pharaoh ordered every baby boy borned to be thrown into the Nile River to be drowned. No one knows how many male babies were drowned in the Nile. The question is this, “Should God continue to allow the killing of new born enslaved babies?” “Should God overlooked the deaths of the babies and the grief of the mothers?” The enslaved Jews cried out to God for justice. In the last plague, God didn’t have the angel of death suddenly killing the Egyptian babies without any warning. The Egyptians were aware of the angel of death to come and the vast majority of the Egyptians didn’t heed the warning of God by going into the home of enslaved Jew with blood markings on the doorway. Death didn’t have to come to them, but they ignored God’s warning. God allowed the Egyptians to experience what the Israelites experience in the loss of their sons and their grief. Was God wrong to do this? Is it not justice?
The same applies to the Canaanites as the people knew that the Israelites were coming. The Canaanites weren’t righteous people but wicked as the sacrificing of their child in a burnt offering to their god. Genesis 15:12–16, God reveals that the sin of the Amorites has not yet reached its full measure. God gave the Amorites in the Promised Land 400 years to repent and change their ways. They didn’t. The Amorites attacked the Israelites and the Israelites repelled and defeated them. The Amorites could have avoided annihilation by leaving the city and country and going to another foreign land. They chose to stay and fight. Their defeat was just and their death was because of their evil conduct in the Promised Land. Isn’t 400 years enough time of grace for repentance by the Amorites!
There is a perception that God owes us to do whatever we want or ask of him. If that was the case, we would be God and not him. God is interested in our character, not in our appearances, possessions or position in life. God’s goal for creation is being with him forever. Isn’t that a wonderful privilege that those who believe in the Creator God and the gift of life through his Son, Jesus Christ will be able to fellowship with God forever and forever. God loves us. He demonstrated that love by giving his Son, Jesus Christ to pay for the penalty of sins against him. God doesn’t force individuals to believe in him. He gives them a choice. That choice is given to you and to me.
SUMMARY: God loves us but he can’t ignore the injustices in this world otherwise he would considered an unjust God.
For more perspectives:
https://www.quora.com/Im-starting-to-believe-God-is-evil-What-do-I-do